You know that quiet moment just before sunrise? When the world hasn’t quite woken up yet, and you’re left alone with your thoughts and a cup of coffee? Yeah, that’s when the big questions tend to hit hardest. For many of us who are both gay and Christian, these early morning moments can feel especially heavy.
I’ve spent countless mornings wrestling with these same thoughts. There’s this persistent idea floating around that we have to choose between our faith and our sexuality – as if God somehow made a mistake when creating us. But let’s pause and really think about that.
Remember what Psalm 139:13-14 tells us: “For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”
That’s not just a nice sentiment – it’s a profound truth about how God sees us. Every single part of us. And trust me, He didn’t make a mistake when He made you.
I often think about David and Jonathan’s relationship. While scholars debate its exact nature, what’s undeniable is the deep, profound love they shared. The Bible describes their souls as being “knit together” (1 Samuel 18:1), and David himself said their love “surpassed the love of women” (2 Samuel 1:26). This wasn’t something that diminished their faith – if anything, it enhanced it.
Now, I’m not saying this settles every theological debate (spoiler alert: it doesn’t), but it shows us something important: love, in its many forms, has always been part of God’s story.
Think about what Paul writes in Galatians 3:28: “There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is no male and female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus.” While this verse wasn’t specifically about sexuality, it speaks to a broader truth: in Christ, many of the divisions we create simply don’t exist.
Here’s something I’ve learned the hard way: God isn’t sitting up there with a clipboard, checking off boxes about your sexuality. He’s much more concerned with how we love – both Him and others. Jesus summed up the entire law with love, remember? “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind… You shall love your neighbor as yourself” (Matthew 22:37, 39).
Some days are harder than others, I get it. There will be people who don’t understand, churches that might not welcome you, and moments of doubt that creep in during those early morning hours. But here’s what I want you to hold onto: your identity in Christ isn’t at war with your sexuality. They’re both part of who you are.
Take a moment right now. Breathe deeply. Remember what John wrote: “God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him” (1 John 4:16). Not some of us – all of us.
As you start your day, carry this truth with you: you’re not half-Christian, half-gay. You’re not a mistake or a problem to be solved. You’re a whole person, fearfully and wonderfully made, called to love God and love others authentically and completely.
That morning coffee tastes a little better when you remember that, doesn’t it?
Prayer for today: God, help me embrace the fullness of who You created me to be. Thank You for loving me completely, not partially. Give me the courage to live authentically and the wisdom to see Your love in all aspects of my life. Amen.
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Last modified: November 8, 2024
